Long Angry Rants

[MatthewV]

Nobody will ever read this thread after a few days. Because it is inherently pointless. But every now and then we need a place to de-stress without judging yourself. And when someone does that the community cares. I needed a place to smash something because I was angry. Angry at myself for many reasons.

Like how extro's judgement about smoking pot being bad. It is good for me dammit. I make wonderful pottery while high. And if you cannot appriciate that fuck off.

I need to make angry rants at times. Sometimes thinking about thinking about how to help is good. sometime it is bad. sometimes i want to write a good post. sometimes I want people to listen to me, sometimes i dont. I am very happy that popele can see how i am as a person-- but when you start judging my actions because they are different worldly views I get very defensive.

I know my idea was good. Now I am taking it out on the GL for not being to understand right away. it might takes years. I don't care.

I really want to make pottery and feel like it an achievement. I value your opinions because htye hve shaped the way I live my life. So much that when you ignore me I start to scream louder and louder.

when I looked into the standford experiment, I became part of it. it was so scary to see yourself as a helpless prisoner being beaten senselessly. I cant show you the way I felt easily

I trust peole here to do good work. Don't make twisted social experiments without premission That is a life lesson.

Don't Die is another

afterall, think that the community is killing users is really creepy.

the world is a social experiment. You cannot escape it. But it has rules you can follow. religions do that

I should really just find a new group of friends-- but everything in my life feels like it dying. The community aspect of the GL is wonderfully supportive.

Quite simply, I am a genius in everyday life because I know the same thing every user here does-- I am smart enough to find anything that I can remember. and I can remember a huge crapload.

But where do your imaginations come from? childhood? the things you see?

Alaska is strange in many ways. I want to let you know about them. But I stopped caring about the people hear because they stopped caring about me.

Remember Pablo? Retired recently. doesn't visit the gl much these days.
extro-- he has time to teach me about life but chooes to act like a 13 year old talking to me. Because I see him in that way.

he has been on the internet about as long as I have. All of have been on the internet about the same length of time.

THE internet is a scary place. You cannot exist as a person on it. There is no sense of community. But the internet is so searchable that anything can be found later. You put some racist comment on Facebook you shout to the world you are a racist. The same is true here.

The world is going down the shitter if you look around enough. Read the headlines and billboards. Experiments have shown people will do unethical things just because they are told.

Nobody will take away the GL from your life. Unless you choose to let it go.

But it is also a place for minds to grow unlike ever before. But only when you can accept a username as a person. An avatar you put on. You imagine yourself and then you post in that way.

So here is the social expirement: what if we make some rules that have to be written and followed. we can steal from anywhere. we can learn from history instead of forgetting it.

Every uprising we read about had a cause and a reason it got crushed. Lets find out the reasons. the standford experiment was wrong but we can learn why it was so twisted and never do that again.

Here are some changes I would like to shout out. They are changes I can make so be careful if you repeat them. if you quote something, it reinforces my idea that I matter as a person. If you smash me, it smashes part of me as a person. You miss out on the achiements of my life. You miss out on my insite to the world. you miss out on so very much as soon as you

here is the deal: if we work together we can have a good time all the time. extro can make excellent posts and people can read them. I can read them. i am not contributing but I am learning.

One message I would like to say is Never Stop Learning. If there was a "teach me relevant stuff about today" thread I would read it.

But if you want to talk about an aspect that relates to me as a person-- remember I know more about me than everyone else. but I cannot see myself. I cannot observe myself.

when a user gets the need to vent, they should have a place to do it so they can clear their mind.
Having a place to vent without judgement or responciblity is the reason why the internet is both wonderful and crappy.

I would encourage poeple to create a second user account if they want to post mad. Posting mad leads to more mad posting--- a loop that doesn't end. At the end of the day you are still mad and nobody cares enough to read why you were mad. And that makes you mad.
you take it out on your children of your friends. You take it out on the GL (as I did) because part of what mad you so mad

Now I want ot just steal things from the GL and use them. I want people of the GL to like the pottery I make because it is pretty-- and a reflection of them.

I want to make the world a more beautiful place. I want to inspire greatness and achieve something-- anything-- when I am old.

On the virtue of laziness--
people want to create. Tehy want to create good things that make things better. Free people create ideas that help the world.

but too many users get lost in the mundane part of life. The part that forces them to think about things they don't want to think about.

Lets think about why something like occupy should or shouldn't be continuing. Lets talk about things that other people arent so that our own distant lives are better.

Lets build castles just because we can. We can change. It is a powerful message used by people who are using power to control you.
I think that most politiians are a bunch of physcopaths. they spout out a bunch of crap and don't follow it.
I think Mitt Rommney is a bad person because he drugged a horse, hurt a dog, and (shit there were three things). But only smart people who understand people realize it.

I see all the advertisement of the world as garbage-- because they are selling you something. I will never try to sell pottery to the gl. I will give it to you freely asked. Or not asked, I have too much of it at times.

Of course, all good things require the biggest lie of them all-- money. You need money to not work. You need money to be lazy. You need money to eat. You need money to pay taxes. You need money to buy useless crap. You need more and more and more and more every single fucking day if you listen to anyone who wants to selll you crap.

And people buy it. And you have to just to keep up with them.

So what happens when you stop caring-- you have time to fill your life with whatever you like doing. Writing pointless drivel or reading pointless drivel. Somehow you life is so boring or you care so much to actually get this far, nice work.

What makes the GL different is that is free. It pisses me off that we have advertisements. I would pay for the server with money I make from selling my pottery. I want to support the gl.

The GL is a coorperation. I care so little about the little red lines I stop..
thinking. I have to go back and change that! I need to make that better! no... because no one will ever give a shit to get this far. I certainly hope they wont! I don't want my posts to mean so much that I care about their impact on a community when I rant. Rants are both very interesting and very annoying to read. A good one comes around once in awhile. If that is the case, maybe I wll read about in my new discussion forum. Yes it is mine right now-- I need it to grow just enough that I remember the accomplishment in a year. So that I come back.

So that I feel good about doing all the pointless crap I do. And so that I can put on a little angle outfit and do good deeds without looking.

The best deeds in life go almost complete unnoticed.

Do you like picking up trash while being watched? We are taught that slaves pick up trash. Let someone else pick up trash.

Well, pick up trash someitmes. Just because it is a tiny little thing that people will respect you for later.

See when you 86, later doesnt matter. You view a wise old man doing nothing but thinking. Or yelling GET OFF MY LAWN because... well... he cared about that goddamn lawn every day of his life.

The notion that public is free is disgusting. Clean up crap.

I will never be a homeless begger. Because if i have no money, I will pick up trash and say "i need some money right now".

twice strangers have asked me for money. I gave each one $20.
I hated and resented the feeling. I have them something for nothing
I hated it the first tme just because I was too polite to say no. I just wanted to get on with my life because I didn't give a shit about that person.

on the second time, I remember the guilt and feeling like I was swindled. I gave someone something I had worked for and earned. I got nothing but a feeling of feeling tricked. he did tell me some sob story that was probably completely bullshit. There are stories about bullshitting. If you want to bullshit, it is easy to learn out to do it.

Or you can be a leader. if you study leaders you will become one.

I was taught to be a thinker. All my life I have been told that I am super genius. A smart person. A good person. Why? Because I kept my anger to myself. I vent. I smash pottery. oh my, I miss fencing so much. A sport where you can just beat the living shit out of someone but not hurt them.
When fencers work together and respect each other as people, they grow without knowing it.

It is a game with rules. I love games.

The GL is a game without rules. Life is a game without rules. Do you know how hard it is to operate in a world without rules? Pretty soon you learn that there are rules. People rules.

But here is the deal-- you cannot look anyone here in the eye and scold them. They just don't believe you. I don't like yelling no matter what the reason is for. but sometimes people NEED TO WAKE UP!

capitals as yelling still works. but when it is used to BUY THIS NEW PRODUCT it becomes a learned behavior to avoid using capitals. Imagine if my personal style ws to always use capslock. Fuck that.

So the good ideas come within the community.

the answer to my puzzle of the grey labyrinth is-- inside it is white and black. You can choose to ignore the black parts. But they are imporant because if someday a new user comes in and says "hi" you don't have to say "hello" back. If they are welcome they will know they are welcome.

We really need an "easy" "moderate" "hard" "expert" and "front page" puzzles. The only difference between them would be which place you choose to participate.

Or we could make Red Puzzles and Blue Puzzles and see how users start to post. One could be for our "daily" users and one for our "weekly" users.

The reason for denouncing sources is because in the searching process your idea will change. Going somewhere to learn something is great. Going somewhere to waste time.. isn't so great.

But genius doesn't come from nothing. It grows. remember the idea of IQ isnt a measure of how smart you are. It is how smart you still are. Acting like a five year old should be treated in that way.

Look as far as I know, my mother will never see this. She is such a wonderful and respectful person that writing about her brings tears to my eyes. A friend of mine once said "meeting your mother ruined 'your mom' jokes" as if it was a bad thing.

So here are some of the things that shaped my life as a person in ways I still don't understand:
--you are a gift from god
--you are a genius - I think I got that one solved.
--try to find jesus on your own - I think I got that one solved.

I know that I am interesting person because people listen when I talk.
When I am drunk I talk and act in ways I cannot respect. I don't drink anymore-- unless everyone else is also drinking. And I mean everyone.

Talking to drunk is frustrating. They are great for learning languages from-- they say the same thing again and again.

I have a theory about quantum people. It is very exciting. But talking about it changes it.
Talking about the Grey Labyrinth changes it. If I want people to change here, all I have to do is talk about change.

Be well, do good work, and keep in touch.
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He tried to understand a phenomenon by describing and depicting it in utmost detail and did not emphasize experiments or theoretical explanation.

[MatthewV]

Holy crap! I succeeded in not caring enough. I couldn't get past the first 4 inches of text.

Whatever you do-- don't quote directly from this thread. Don't link to it either. that way I can feel it gets lost. Now if you can laugh and say "remember that angry rant you made" I will laugh also if a few days have passed.
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He tried to understand a phenomenon by describing and depicting it in utmost detail and did not emphasize experiments or theoretical explanation.

[MatthewV]

And another important part of "serious discussions" should be no double posting. It shows you didn't care enough to get all your thoughts out. It is okay only after like a day.
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He tried to understand a phenomenon by describing and depicting it in utmost detail and did not emphasize experiments or theoretical explanation.

[extropalopakettle]

[extropalopakettle]

Kids do this with their parents, btw ... little tests to see where the boundaries are.

And corporations do it. Often laws are ambiguous, and what is legal or illegal isn't clear, so a corporation must of necessity, if it matters, proceed with some matter to see how the courts will decide. wikipedia on that

[itisally]

my two year old asks, " I touch?" It is all about figuring out what the rules mean. there is no such thing as a place without rules. Some are just implied rather than written.

Remeber to not judgeif you don't want to be judged. As much as something may work for you they may have serious reasons for it not working for then.

BTW: I love the idea of leveled fron page puzzels so that I could grow as a solver rather than just being confused.
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I could agree with you, but then we would both be wrong.

[Pablo]

13 year old?
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All religions are the same - Guilt....just with different holidays.

[The Potter]

More like a zero-year-old! Seriously the whole ordeal was very "born again" in a rather literal fashion.

Sorry Pablo, I know I sent you some message from my old account and you may have replied to it. But I won't be touching MatthewV for a long while...just because.

[Pablo]

I see........sort of.


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All religions are the same - Guilt....just with different holidays.

[The Potter]

Pablo
hopefully my neighbor will still be purchasing him
It is a quarter in the corner for size reference.