Samadhi

[jeep]

Aw... shit...

RIP Samadhi.

-JEEP
(I wrote quite a bit, but it all summed up to the first line.)

[Pablo]

A private message I got from him in 2008.

[Trojan Horse]

I went V/LA the day before this thread was posted. I've been back for a few days, but somehow, I didn't notice this thread until this morning.

Ugh.

I guess there's not much to say, is there? RIP, Sam.

[Internet Stranger]

ugh, just found out.


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[Mr Nigma]

Sam was one of the first people to make this place seem like home for me.

Rest in peace Shipmate.

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

[Buzzsaw]

Can't believe this, am really sorry to hear about this.

[GFY]

Thank you. All of you.


Nota Bene: Pablo, that 2008 quote is pure fiction. Kev was always good at deception. Booze killed him, not cancer. Esophageal hemmerage. I knew it was coming since his birthday and could not go this time.
So our brother Jim and our (step) dad Alan broke into his apartment on Christmas (!!!!!). ... Sorry. I'm not handling this so well.
I miss my brother.
GFY

[Jack_Ian]

You don't need to make apologies.
There is no right way to handle this.
You just do what you need to do, to get through this.

None of us are perfect and we did not expect your brother to be perfect either. He will still be fondly remembered here even though his demons finally got the better of him.

I'm glad we added to the joy in his life. He certainly gave it back to us.

Take care.

[GFY]

Thanks, Jack.

Again, I thank you all.

A friend of ours spoke at his memorial and commented that, even if he and Sam (Kev) agreed 99.9% on a particular point, they could still spend hours debating that 0.1%, laughing all the way.

I get emotional about issues, he never did. He reserved his emotion for peope.

[Evil Empire]

Wow Very sorry for your loss. I don't come around here very often any more, but when I do I would always jump to his threads/posts. He will be missed.

[AZu]

R.I.P.

[extropalopakettle]

I had a strange dream about Samadhi last night. I've never met him, but in the dream he was in very good physical shape, athletic looking I guess, and I said to him "gee, you look great", and thought to myself "that's kind of ironic, because you're dead".

Then ... I had another dream where I was in a room, I think a classroom, with three or four other people, sitting near each other. One of them was the same Samadhi from the previous dream, and the others GLers, but I don't know who. But this time I wasn't sure it was Samadhi, because I thought I was awake, as I was telling them about the previous dream, and I actually cried a little as I told it, which I felt silly about (and it's strange - it even kinda chokes me up a bit now as I write, even though I never met the guy, and so much time has passed). I was telling them how in my dream, I met Samadhi, said to him "gee, you look great", how I thought to myself "that's kind of ironic, because you're dead", and Samadhi said "maybe that was his after life body". I remember then being puzzled, and wondering if it was Samadhi, and wanted to ask the other GLers "do you see him?", and then I woke up.

I'm still having a sort of emotional reaction to this, which puzzles me, as we were never even message board close.

[TGC*]

Oh my god...I had no idea...

Here I am, like a dope, in this Samadhi-filled world thinking that one day I'll see another witty post of his or see him play in another mafia game.

...

I'll miss him. Regrets? Never seeing that mafia game of his start, not reading more of his posts, and never fully apologizing for misspelling his username and calling him a woman and any other post of mine that might have pissed him off.

...what's sinking in faster and harsher than anything is just the realization that he'll never log in and post again. RIP Sam, indeed. If there's any consolation it's that his bodily issues are at peace. He was intelligent, very humorous with his posts.

May it be a very long time before the next GL death.

[Jedo the Jedi]

I just found this.

[The Great Crep'er]

I saw the title of this thread by Sam and was a little spooked to say the least.

[Jack_Ian]

I just remembered today that it was Samadhi who got me my first GMail account, back when you needed an invite to get one.
Way back in August 2004.
Thanks for that. It was cool to be in when it was an exclusive club.

[extropalopakettle]

[The Ragin' South Asian]

Does anyone else open this thread every so often thinking that this time, there'll be a post from Sam making fun of us for "falling for it"?

[Pablo]

[Beartalon]

[The Great Crep'er]

There it sits, not getting made.