How are you... really?

[Mackay]

This is an open diary-type thread, for everyone to talk about what's on their minds, no matter how small, trivial or life-changing. Everyone! Post!

An example:

Today I am feeling that horrible gnawing feeling in my gut that I only get when I'm really upset about something and trying to suppress it. Also, I have ANOTHER doctor's appointment today, where I receive the results of all the tests I've had done over the past week or so. Hopefully this should just about wrap it all up, if they've found anything. I'm sick of being sick, I just want to be treated already. It's frustrating that it's been over a year and that they're still not sure what's wrong with me. Gah.

...ok, your turn.

[chief ten beers]

Mackay, what's with the ailments? You can beat the whole thing, you're still a pup. (pup = young person)

[MacadamiamaN]

I'm hungry. I'm going to go eat. bye!

[Courk]

Thanks for the clarification. I thought she was a werewolf.

[chief ten beers]

She looks better with a little make-up on.

[Mackay]

Gah, don't talk about me. Talk about yourselves. Buzz, I thought I already mentioned that you and I are now bowel buddies as well as bosom buddies.

[chief ten beers]

For your info I have only 3 hospital payments left! Actually, 3...out of 6

Stop calling me a bowel buddy! I am going under the scalpel to become a "new man" Nov. 1. (I need to get some more money around to pay for it., so this summer is....different. I still go on the Wed night rides and kick everyone's ass. Pics of me and bike soon, it's a Merlin XLM with XTR, hand picked stuff, tricked wheels, orthopedic grips, Thai after market fork, and ........

...Toe Clips!)

[pikachamp]

I'm happy because I have a new mouse! Yay!

[Gomez]

I'm stressed because I've just started a new job and I hate it but I can't quit because I need the money.

[i_h8_evil_stuff]

Many different emotions, all at the same time. Some are for serious reasond, while somme are not so serious.

Happy: I'm going to an anime convention in 4 days!
Happy: I talked to Ellen last night!
Happy: Graduation is in 10 days!
Sad: My grandmother is having an operation on her elbow.
Sad: I had to turn in my TI-89 last week. I completely forgot how to use an 83+.
Depressed: I won't see most of my friends after graduation.

[luminous]

no matter how ridiculous it may sound, my summerjob at subway is quite fun. it means i get to hurl tomatoes. and smell yummy baking bread aaaaaall day. and mutter profanity at customers who request extra mayo on their already mayonaised tuna salad sub. but they can't hear. (thanks, sneezeguard!) and pilfer food quite often.
arr.
and it means extra money towards going to new york and random requirements, like the new Killers CD. (Mmm.)

i realised today, in the car, singing along with lou reed, that my singing style is entirely based on the way anne sexton reads her poetry.
oh le sob. perhaps.
although the uniforms at subway are beyond dorky. ohwell.

[Internet Stranger]

Originally posted by evil lumi:

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and pilfer food quite often.

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You wench! Dont you realize this is why a measly paper thin sandwhich there costs $7 instead of $4?

[luminous]

six-inch sandwiches cost three! twelveinch costs about five! EXCEPT ON TUESDAYS WHEN THEY COST THREE AS WELL!

take it like a man.

[Courk]

What can I put on a 12 inch sub for $3 on Tuesdays? Anything I want? Or is there a limit of X many items? How much do additi onal items cost? DO I really have to ever order a specific sandwhihc, or can I just tell them to add this meat, and that meat, and pickles, and that sauce, etc?

[luminous]

pbfft. sandwiches are named based on which meats are on there.
pickles and vegts and stuff, whatever the hell you want. same goes for sauce.
meatball, coldcuttrio, and some other ones are three bucks.

[zorT Kitty]

I'm hot and stuffed up with a fan on my face, angry with my mom for messing with the carefully organized pictures I had laid out on the table, frustrated with my darned hematoma on my leg, and upset with my boyfriend for being so smothering. Also, I'm thankful that Mackay started this thread... it feels good to vent somewhere.

[luminous]

the new record from the killers came out today, and i'm vaguely debating buying it.
but they're like, "OMG WE WISH WE WERE DEPECHE MODE"x100.
hm.

BUT NOW THAT I HAVE A LOT OF MONEY I CAN AFFORD TO WASTEEEEEE.
~throws bills around in the air~

[Termital]

 ..feeling idiotic, sleep deprived, and relapsing into pseudo-existential angst, thanks for asking .

 Anyhow, two days ago I was on (EU parliament) election comittee duty in my local parish, and I still can't get over assimilating my newfound knowledge, constisting of:
a) About 20% of the voters will fail to realise you have to pull a little plastic strip off the envelope to expose the adhesive surface on the lip. This means that even after we corrected them, we still head to deal with a hundred saliva-soaked envelopes (when something doesn't work, apparently the proper thing to do is repeat about 50 times).
b) Court-appointed comittee members are highly susceptible to rare tropical diseases on election day.
c) Fast food lunches are even worse when cooked before breakfast.
d) People will never read a sign when they can annoy you with questions, even if the answer is on 3mx2m board in front of them. Also on every door, and again on every other wall.
e) Failure to sit for 13hrs straight in uncomfortable shoes will result in impressive calluses.
f) Suits might be good for passing yourself off as an authority, but they suck in 35 deg weather.
g) My district has radically different opinions from the rest of the country.
h) I should never try to use my combination of knowledge of feng-shui and german grammar to make an ice-breaking joke.

 Other than that, I finally found my soulmate on the bus back home . Too bad he's of the wrong sex and I'm moving out soon.

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Yearn brightly



[This message has been edited by Termital (edited 06-15-2004 09:36 PM).]

[Lilifreid]

I have been feeling guilty about not being around, so I haven't posted, so I've felt guiltier... etc. Plus I felt like I should be telling the following, but couldn't figure out where, cause everytime I looked in VSN, someone had much bigger problems than me, or had just posted something really happy, and I didn't want to rain on that.

Anyway, some of you know that for a couple of months I was studying for a major exam. Well, it was about a month ago, and the studying did not pay off. As it was a qualifying exam, this means I am no longer a graduate student. This is actually not that bad of a thing, as I was growing increasingly frustrated anyway. Also on the plus side, I had passed an earlier qualifying exam and have completed all requirements (except one)for a masters degree, so I should be leaving with at least a masters in math.

The badness is that the remaining requirement is to pass a reading test in German, French, or Russian (dictionarys allowed), none of which is a language I have studied. So I have about 2 months to get the basics of the grammar down for German. Also, there is the sudden need to find employment, hopefully in the teaching field. Meanwhile, I am working at Blockbuster and I will be teaching a summer course at the university.

So, nothing is really wrong per se, but feeling pretty overwhelmed. I feel a bit better now, though. For now, at least.

[Beartalon]

I have this vague feeling of expectancy, as if something momentous is about to happen in my life, but I can't tell if it's a positive or negative for me. It's unsettling in a "I might be imagining the whole thing" sort of way...

[Mackay]

Oh gosh... don't tell me that. I've been suffering from an ever-increasing feeling of impending doom. I don't know whether it's my mental illness, the fact that I'm very stressed out at the moment, or something actually happening... but this feeling keeps getting stronger, accompanied my certain dreams that have been increasing in frequency, and a certain "sign" that keeps appearing everywhere during my awake and lucid moments and putting the fear of God into me something shocking. Arrrgh.

I think I'm cracking up again.

[Mackay]

Crap, I almost forgot.

*giant bear hugs for Lili* *if she'll take them*

bah, you should have said something sooner, you poor thing. Good luck, mate.

[AcidFast]

I am pissed off because I have no new e-mails today.

I hate that.

AF

[Aarondalf]

I have gmail.
I have lots of money.
I have a free trip to Norway.
I have a computer comming.
I have been getting less and less sore in the arm.
I have a tan.
I have an alright body now.

I r gud.

[Dragon Phoenix]

I just saw a picture of Rasputins conserved genitals. That's another image that I could have done without.

[Mercuria]

dizzy! i'm so dizzy! <does dizzy dance>

yeah, lacking sleep, kinda... i went from waking up around 11-12 and getting out of bed at 1-2 (staring at a fish tank with no fish... yeah, talk about lazy) to getting up at 7 to drive to work... my abs are sore, but that's it... which doesn't make any sense 'cause my arms should be sore as well... but that's beside the point...

the other part of me lacking sleep is what time i'm going to sleep... phone calls, and thinking... all plagued by distance... not that i'd trade it all for sleep, but... maybe i should...

other than that, i'm liking my job so far... but... i haven't really done anything yet (other than drop a server rack door on someone... ow...)

[Vader]

[One Skunk Todd]

I feel like crap most of the time lately. No particular reason why. I'm taking drugs but they don't seem to help much.

[Vinny]

~spins around in circle

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

[One Skunk Todd]

Vinny I should set you up with this lady Soo who works in my office.

[Vinny]

Oh, is she hot?

Soo, is that Korean?

[One Skunk Todd]

Yes and yes.

[Vinny]

/in

[Soo]

/out

...unless you bring Huey too! rowr!

[Beartalon]

The feeling of expectancy has passed, to be replaced by total chaos. A few days ago, we were told one member of our team was leaving, and I offered to volunteer to replace her, learning the more advanced duties she held (and hopefully get a similar pay raise). However, today work was totally chaotic when another group changed three server configurations without testing the changes first, nor telling Customer Support, nor informing the clients. I was forced to deal with a lot of calls that are not in my area of expertise and I lost my temper at one point at the disorganized way my group tackled the problem, making it even worse. When I was much calmer, I offered suggestions to improve our process. I hope those two will cancel out. I don't think my yelling will reflect well later, since it attracted the attention of my department manager, three levels above me, whose office is down the hall around a very anechoic wall...

[i_h8_evil_stuff]

I'm feeling... bleh.

I'm should be either:
a) working on my website, which is almost ready (I just need to put some images up and then upload like crazy), or
b) "studing" FLCL (read: watching it 7 times) for the anime convention on saturday, where I will be cosplaying the part of Naota. I'll fall asleep if I just watch a TV.

[extropalopakettle]

Beartalon: see your outburst as purely about genuinely caring about having the job done right, and stick by that. If it comes up, you might be able to briefly acknowledge you could have handled it differently, but emphasize the fact that you give a damn and that how you felt was a natural consequence of that. My 2 cents.

[Digit Ne]

Hot, thanks for asking.
Stupid California weather.

Also, both pleased and slightly annoyed that someone stole a compliment intended for my beloved boy with the characteristic grace and style that I have come to love.

[Beartalon]

Thanks, extro - that's where I was headed.

[Jedo the Jedi]

Suddenly, my problems don't seem so bad. After reading this thread, I feel much better because I realise that my life could be worse. Really, I've just got girl trouble and am desperately in need of a job. I have applied to multiple places, but to no avail. Oh well.